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I don’t want flowers. I need you. A Poem by Coyote PoetryAppreciation and real gifts of love lead to good places. I don’t want flowers. I need you…. (We forget what we really  need. Need passion and desire to keep love alive.) A beautiful woman is waiting for me. I promise her dancing and presents. I […]

I don’t want flowers. I need you…

Sunset over the Hudson River

First of all, here are some cute pics:  Me and my boyfriend went to the Advent yesterday as well and we finally took some pictures. There was a line to take a picture in front of that moon but it was worth it. The light really brought up the redness on my face.   Also, I […]

Advent and cute pictures!

This week’s bonus colour(s) from South Africa Let’s celebrate colour during December!

Life in Colour

She sings her songto reach all ears,hoping her wrongsdissolve and clear.Singing so loud,provoking tears,confessing sounds,consciousness hears. Absolving sinsone at a time,memories spinreleasing crimes.Plays her violinas her heart chimes,then slowly grins,feeling sublime. Her lyrics madeto testify,as music plays,to memorize,both serve as aidsthat energize,hopes that displaywhat hides inside. Forgive mistakeswith melodies,soon all guilts break,as remedy.Future awakesabilities,to give […]

Confess

If I have the chance to choose my cake and eat it too, I always choose vanilla cake with vanilla frosting and rainbow sprinkles. And a lot of frosting, by the way, if this matters at all which is to say not really, no, it doesn’t in the grand scheme of things. But on this […]

Birthday Cake and Pink Champagne

I’ve spent today making art (finishing my collage at last), painting and redesigning this blog into a hopefully much easier to read formet.

These are good, productive things. But tidying up the blog meant I had to bin posts I wrote in the middle of a paranoid episode.

I have a mental illness. I say that with neither pride nor shame, same as I would my coeliac disease. Most of the time when I start to struggle I use the coping skills I have learned over the years and keep going. But sometimes they fail.

In the latest case, I suppose I can take some mild comfort in the fact that outside factors/people brought this one on. The sad truth is, toxic, nasty and cunning people will push your buttons to get a reaction. It is a tough fact to face, that you trusted such an evil excuse for a person. Especially when your mind is telling you that everyone wants you dead, and here’s someone confirming it.

I came out the other end, mostly anyway. Support from family and friends can never be understated. They are treasures. They’ve talked me down more times than I can count.

For all of you: thank you!

It’s carnage on the roads today. Proper gridlock. The amount of time I used to waste on the roads. Rush hour first thing, then rush hour on the way home. Travelling distances for meetings. Rushing here and there. Grabbing a sandwich while scurrying to my next appointment. Surviving on ever increasing amounts of caffeine. Time […]

Time