When I woke up this morning – or, should I say, came out of my doze – I saw a beautiful white light painting the wall. I thought maybe – at last! – heaven had taken me home. Taken me to a kind, welcoming place where finally things are good, no more crying every day.

It was the dawn light. Because, as Hugh Jackman said in the The Prestige, the world is solid all the way through. Sometimes though, for just a minute, you can believe…

My life here is real, solid all the way through. My misery here is real. And I don’t know if it’ll ever change for the better.

If you can possibly spare anything at all, my Cashapp is £SaferThanHeaven84, my ko-fi is:

https://ko-fi.com/emmaslens and my paypal is emmaconner84@gmail.com.